I
was ready....I was prepared! Or so I thought...
Exactly
this time three years ago, I can still remember anxiously roaming about hoping
I would go into labor.
My
body was more than ready and I felt prepared. The nursery was ready, clothes
washed and my hospital bag was packed.
I
can remember thinking that the 37 weeks I had been pregnant had flown by and
yet as I set and waited on her to come, the clock stood still!
I
would sit and hold my stomach as it would rumble back and forth from the gentle
rocking of her little hick ups. I felt huge and uncomfortable. I had not been
sleeping very well and I just knew that was God's way of preparing me for many
sleepless nights with a newborn....
He
was preparing me, but not for what I thought. I thought I was ready, prepared.
I thought I had left no stone unturned, only I forgot to prepare one thing; my
heart!
I
never prepared my heart for what was going to happen in my life and how God was
going to use it.
I'm
not saying I should have prepared my heart for something bad to happen, only
that we should always be in prayer for God's will in our life, good or bad.
When
Bethany died, I never imagined my heart could break so deeply and yet I also
never imagined it could live again. I was so hurt, I let myself forget what a
big God I serve and that nothing is ever too big for HIM!
A
soldier would never go into battle unprepared and yet we as Christians often go
into life DAILY without preparing our heart to give 100% control to God no matter
what may come.
Should
we live in fear; never, but we should live knowing that God is in control;
ALWAYS!
As
Bethany's birthday fast approaches, I find myself missing her and loving her,
but most of all, standing in awe of God's amazing grace to pull me through the
darkest valley of my life.
Is your
heart prepared to give God control no matter what your day may bring?
