I am my own WORST enemy. You see, I have often already
failed at something before I have even started. Not because I might not be able
to do it, but because of the words I have allowed to enter my head, have filled
my mind with so much fear and self-doubt, that I have already failed before I
have even started!
You get my point!
Years ago, I realized that having any kind of New Year’s resolution
was a complete waste of time. I would set out to make myself a goal or
something I wanted to change and then I allowed fear and self-doubt to keep me
from achieving said goal. I honestly never felt like I was good at anything.
I would vow to be a better mom because I would compare
myself to the so called perfect, have it ALL together Pinterest moms I would
see around me. By January 2nd I was yelling at my kiddos, the house
was a mess and laundry was pouring into the hallway and seeping out the doors…Yep;
I’m not that mom!
I would vow to read my bible more, be a better house wife,
better teacher, better friend, or best yet; to get in shape…NOTHING EVER WENT
MY WAY!
You see, we all Vow to make the annual New Year’s Resolution.
In some way, we vow that we will change our ways, eat better and all around get
healthy. We ultimately make a vow to change.
Although these things in and of themselves are not bad
goals, they will never bring the change our heart desires for eternal
satisfaction.
We need more. More than just a New Year’s Resolution that
may or not get lost in the Chaos of life.
So often, more than I want to admit, I plan my life out and
then wonder where God is. I seek control in the midst of heartache. I fear I
will never be good enough and I allow self-doubt to take over every thought and
emotion running through my body.
These specific fears have often lead me to the verse,
Ephesians 3:20:
“Now to him who is
able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to
His power that is at work within us.”
My word this year is, MORE. I want more
of Him and less of me. I want more
of Him in every aspect of my life. In my marriage, my home, my job! Without
pause, without Him, I am nothing!
I don’t know about you, but I need Him. I am honestly a hot
mess almost daily without the saving grace of my Savior.
If more
of Him means less of me
Take ev'rything!
All of Him is all I need
Take ev'rything!
Take ev'rything!
All of Him is all I need
Take ev'rything!
I want eternal satisfaction. I want a
RELATIONSHIP with Jesus. I want More of Him, THAT is the real change I am
seeking. It is the one thing I can do in my life that will last for an
Eternity.
You see, tomorrow is never promised and
today is a gift. I want to let God use me
RIGHT WHERE I AM… Scary, I know!
God will use you in your mess. He will use you in your brokenness.
No change, goal or plan can ever compare to the life God has in store for you
when you simple follow Him.
Silence the lies…
I will never measure up…. He is More than enough.
I am not perfect…He is Perfect.
I will never be good enough…He is MORE than enough!!!
This world will quickly pull you in to the surface and fill
your head with lies from every angle you turn. From social media, to magazine
racks to the girl next door, YOU ARE ENOUGH. You are not defined by the girl
sitting next to you or what you may or may not be wearing. Too often we jump to
changing something about ourselves to measure up to the standards of the world
and then we crash and burn when we can’t meet the word’s expectations.
Well, how about turning to God instead?
Break free of the bondage from fear, self-doubt or whatever
it is that was creating the need for change in the first place.
When you have nothing left….Turn to God
When you feel you have failed…God is more
When you feel you will never measure up…He is Always more
than enough!
Oh Lord, I am so unworthy. Thank you for being so much more
than I deserve!
