Oh mama, when they say you will miss this moment, it is hard to imagine just how much you truly will. You see, because in this moment, you are so much more than just in this moment.
Looking back at this moment…I wish I could bottle it up. I wish I could hold them and squeeze them and be in this moment again. I wish I could go back in this moment and love them so fiercely with everything in me…but the truth…the truth is…
In this moment…I was exhausted. I was often running on fumes. I was faking it to make it and if all of them sleeping right on top of me meant we actually got sleep, then so be it; at least we slept!
Looking back, I can see that I rarely wore make up when they were little. My time, moments and energy were completely consumed with them, and I although I was physically drained half of the time, I so wish I truly understood how fast the time really went.
Oh sweet mama! Hold on just a little tighter when she ask for just one more good night hug.
Oh sweet mama! Read that story again and again when he begs for the millionth time.
Play barbies, make tents, get messy, laugh and BE SILLY!
Oh mama, how you long for a moment of quiet and yet one day you will crave for a house of noise again.
And oh, sweet mama, please look past what the world tells you is the perfect mother and simply look into the eyes of your precious children and love them with everything you have inside you.
Never forget that jealously and comparison will steal your joy and moments you could be having with YOUR babies.
For you see, one day they will no longer ask for the story to be read and they will no longer cry or linger to sleep next to your warm embrace.
One day…all too soon, oh sweet mama, one day…. Those moments will be memories.
Too often I wish I could go back and freeze time. I wish I could laugh for hours and tell myself in these moments to just let go of every…single…insecurity…I thought I had. I wish I go back and tell myself that one day, one day I will walk by their empty rooms and pray God is watching over them. Pray that I taught them to follow Him in everything they do. Pray that with every mistake I made, that just maybe I taught them to cling to Jesus and love others.
You see, these moments are so much more precious than we know. Today and each moment we are gifted is just that, a gift! I know all too well that my children are His.
Hold on tight and create memories to last a lifetime.
For you see mama, tomorrow may never come, today is a gift…Use it! Make memories you will never forget. Yes, the days can be long and the nights can be restless, but one day those little fingers will wean from your hands and I pray it’s the hands of Jesus they fall into.
