I found this picture online and I loved it! Are we this passoniate about our prayer life? Do we fall before God and just pray and listen? I want to be!
“My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in
weakness.” 2 Corinthians 12:8-9
Being a parent is the hardest job in the world. Every day I send my children into the world praying I have taught them well and I am guiding them in the right direction. Now, my children are far from perfect and I stumble and fall as a parent daily; I think we are often on a rollercoaster ride together!
Being a parent is the hardest job in the world. Every day I send my children into the world praying I have taught them well and I am guiding them in the right direction. Now, my children are far from perfect and I stumble and fall as a parent daily; I think we are often on a rollercoaster ride together!
As a parent who truly cares about every detail of my kids’ lives,
maybe too much, I know I can appear to be too involved or overbearing. The
problem is I love them too much and unfortunately I also know reality; I’ve been
there! Unlike so many people I know, I know what it feels like to have your
child one day and stand at their funeral the next. I know that tomorrow is no guarantee
and that scares me to death sometimes.
At any moment any one of my children could be gone. I wonder
with every event of their lives if I am guiding them in the right direction. I
know it sounds crazy, but I can’t tell you how often I wonder if my words to
them, my help or guidance might be the last thing I say or do for them.
I’m not saying I live in fear because I don’t, I just want to
do everything right, I want to give them my best with every day that God gives
me with them.
I mess up and fall flat on my face too many times to count. So
often I really think I am helping and just end up making a big mess out of
things. My heart is in the right place and I love them so much it hurts. It
hurts that I don’t have my other little girl here to fight with, love on and
make her life just as fun and crazy as my other kids.
When you lose a child you world is never the same, your life
is never the same, and you could never parent the same way you did before.
I question every decision, doubt myself too often, and pray
that one day these chains of grief that hold my heart captive will break free.
Being a parent is always a reminder that there is one sweet
little girl in Heaven I will NEVER
get to parent.
At the end of the day my only saving grace is that Christ
holds the key to my heart. On days when I feel like everything is falling
apart, HE is there. On days when I feel like it is too hard to be a parent, I
turn to the only true Father I need to guide me.
On days when I have no answers at all, I fall to my knees and
He is there to listen and guide. He is my example. I want to be a parent who
listens, loves and guides. Who corrects and disciplines when needed.
I want to be a parent
who never stops caring and never stops trying no matter how often I think I may
fail or get it wrong.
And most of all I want to be a praying parent who never stops
seeking guidance from Christ!
Today is here and my sweet little girl is a daily reminder and
gift to me that life is short. I have to
live each day doing the best I can and being who God has called me to be. I
will always love her and miss her, but through her death I learned that I can’t
get yesterday back, but I can decide how I will react about today no matter
what the outcome may be!
It doesn’t matter if we try and fail or try and succeed, as
long as you live your life for GOD! Mistakes are simply an opportunity for God
to work on your heart and allow you to grow!!!
