Follow ME?!?!

"ME first, ME first!" ....the children all yell as they run toward the playground slide.

"ME first, ME first!".....as the teacher ask for a volunteer in the classroom.

The need to be first. The desire to want so badly what is being offered. The anticipation of what is to come.

The sad thing is; we live in a "Me first" society. Cars racing to cut one another off. People pushing and shoving to get in front of someone. Our children might learn this concept at a very young age, but I'm not so sure we ever really get over it.

We live in a society where we so badly want what others have, that often we do whatever it takes to get it.  We follow the wrong crowd or push and shove our way to the top. We so badly WANT to be noticed and acknowledged.

I have to admit...I wanted it too. It sounded nice. Well, at least I thought I did... That desire to have others accept you and what you have to say.

It was one year ago today when I first started my blog, and at first I had no clue what I was really diving into. I wanted to share my story and attempt to help others as well. I literally JUMPED right in. I had no clue what having a blog really even entailed.

After a while, I realized that people where following my blog; I was intrigued. I was a little shocked and flattered that anyone would want to read what I had to say. After a few months I began seeing tons of information being passed around about making your blog bigger and gaining more followers; yes....I thought it sounded great.

I few months later, I realized that I had began to check and notice if I had more followers and I was very curious to see if anyone commented on my post. It was about that time I saw the picture above and boy did it hit me. It was not about me or how many people I had following my blog; that's not why I write!

Every since my baby girl went to Heaven, I have a love and desire to write what God has placed on my heart. I am terrible with words when I talk face to face with people, and I stumble over myself too many times too count! I felt as though writing was my escape and my way to express what my mouth could not say.

I temporarily got lost in the publicity of wanting what others had. I realized that I write for me and often to give praise back to God for what He is doing in my life; good or bad. It doesn't not matter if a million people read my blog or none. What matters is that I am doing it for the right reasons.

It is Christ who I pray others will aim to follow. I pray that others will see Him in all I say, do and write. I pray that when all of the material things of this world fade away, others will still see Christ in me.

We don't have to push and shove our way to the top; if fact, the first shall be last and the last shall be first. So  often we think we know what we want and desire when in reality, stepping down and back from the crowd will often show you what really matters the most.

Follow Christ and aim to lead others toward Him in your actions.....He wants your time and your love and most importantly, your heart! Love Him today! Follow Him today!