Happy Birthday To ME!

"So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal."

2 Corinthians 4:18

WOW~ I can’t believe another year has gone by. I would like to say that the older I get the wiser I become and the more I have learned. Although I am sure that is true, I can’t help of thinking of the unfinished list, goals, and accomplishments.

          At one point in my life, I dreaded my birthday; one because it was Valentine’s Day, and two because it meant I was getting older. It wasn’t that I didn’t feel special for having my birthday on Valentine’s day, but anyone who knows me will know that I have a hard time letting people treat me special, I hate for people to go out of their way for me; I’m working on this.

          I think we often look at Birthday’s like New Year’s resolutions. We make new goals and new things we would like to accomplish within the next year of our life. I think making goals and list are a great way to keep your life organized on a daily basis, but what goals are we really making for our future? Are we focusing on the here and now, or eternity?

          This is the second birthday I have had since Bethany went to heaven, and I have to say it makes me look at my life a little differently. Before, it was just another birthday, another year gone by. Now, I see that life is so much more than just another day. Life is about living every moment we are given to the fullest, each and every day, and remembering that our life here is simply a vapor and our life in Heaven is Eternal.

          The first year after Bethany died was a very hard and dark year for me. This last year has been more about learning who I am again and how to be blessed with every day I am given. What have I learned this last year? I have learned that God is still here and has never left my side. I have learned that although my insecurities still dance within me, my Savior pours upon me each and every day. I am learning to fix my eyes on what is not seen, but what is eternal.

          I do not dread my birthday or getting older anymore; in fact, I am blessed for each and every day God blesses me to be here with the ones I love. I am blessed for the lessons and experiences I have been through; without them, I would not be the person I am today.