Wednesday, February 2, 2011

What is Love?

What is Love?
Love seems like something so simply to define and yet is it?
I can still remember the moment I saw Bethany’s tiny heart flickering on a monitor at 9 weeks; instantly I was in love.
The moment they placed all four of my children in my arms, Kayla, Gabriel, Brayson, and Bethany; I knew a love I had never know before.
As mothers, we sacrifice so many things on a daily basis to show our children the type of love we want them to have, and yet we rarely receive the same love in return. We are often the last to eat, the last to get dressed, and the last in bed at the end of the day. Our children natural take everything from us, and we willing give everything to them because we love them.
So many nights as I am tucking my children into bed, they say their prayers, hug my neck and say, “Mommy, I love you so much”. Those sweet words make any loss of sleep, food or beauty the most prized possession about being a mom. That is my reward; Love.
As I was lying in bed tonight, I got to thinking that I would give anything to hear these sweet words from my sweet Bethany. Pregnancy is hard and as a mother we willingly sacrifice our body to grow this perfect little miracle, because the reward is worth the pain and sacrifice in the end…..Where is my reward? I knew any discomfort I went through was worth that moment they placed her in my arms…That moment I felt the love of my savior as I held my newborn little miracle, and imagined the life we would share.
            Was my pain and discomfort taken away the moment Bethany was placed in my arms? Was it all worth it?  The moment Bethany was placed in my arms was not the moment I imagined, but it was a moment where I instantly fell head over heels in love. I saw perfection looking upon her sweet little soul. I saw my savior because I knew he was holding her tight in heaven above.
            Yes, every bit of discomfort and pregnancy pain and labor pain was forgotten, and I was left with the love of a little angle wrapped in my arms and the love of Jesus Christ wrapped around my heart from then until forever…..My reward and My, “I love you Mom”, will come when I meet her in heaven….My heart can’t wait…
Love will prevail!
This is my favorite song right now. In the darkest hour of my life, this was all I needed: Your Love by Brandon Heath:


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7 comments:

  1. What a beautiful post..so very true..

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  2. What a truly beautiful and touching post. Your little baby girl is so precious.Enjoy every minute.

    Stopping by from SITs.

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  3. I'm so sorry for your loss, but you have truly captured the beauty of what it means to bring a child into the world. Thank you for sharing your feelings in such an eloquent and beautiful way.

    And thank you for taking the time to stop by my blog today and leave such a thoughtful comment as well. I hope you have a blessed rest of the week.

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  4. I love that song too! And I agree 100%-it is worth it.

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  5. what a beautiful song. i'm excited to follow along with your journey. very cute blog :)

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  6. I found your blog through Women Living Well. I am so sorry for your loss Amy. My heart and prayers go out to you and your family. I cannot imagine the pain and heartache... but I know our almighty God is faithful..... He is using you to touch others. Your little angel is beautiful....

    Peace and Blessings to you....
    Missy

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  7. makingthemostofeachdayFebruary 12, 2011 at 4:53 AM

    Dearest Amy and Family,
    Your faith inspires me. Your Bethany is beautiful! You will understand God's view of it all one day. He is perfect and so are His ways which are beyond human understanding. "Hope" how appropriate is that name?
    God Bless you, I am praying for you!

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