Tuesday, May 3, 2011

Happy Birthday Sweet Girl!

                I will never forget the moment I took the first, second, third, and yes even forth pregnancy test. I was elated with joy that I was really going to have another baby. My dreams of having four children were really going to come true. We had prayed for another child. We wanted this so much for our family and truly felt as though God had blessed us beyond belief.
                I often think back to those early moments of joy and wonder if the heartache and suffering has overshadowed so much of the joy I felt in my pregnancy. I loved being pregnant; really, I did. I loved getting big, and feeling those tiny hands and feet move around inside of me. I loved hearing her tiny yet fast flickering heartbeat every single time I went to the doctor. It never got old to me.
                I only wish I had known that her fast little heartbeat would fade away into the night along with every hope and dream I had for her. I am so blessed for the time God gave me with her, because it was joy; pure joy. I love the memories I have of my pregnancy and I love the video I have of her ultrasounds. I love every minute of her life that I was able to experience.
                There is a part of my heart that so desperately wants to run as far and as fast as I can screaming for God to make things different, and allow Bethany to be here with me. Yet, there is another part of my heart that has come to see that God had bigger plans for my sweet girl, plans I still can’t imagine. The hopes and dreams I originally had in store where not big enough for the plans that my Heavenly Father had in store for such a precious little life.
                Through her death, she has a voice and a story, and I am proud to be her mother. My daughter along with so many other angels are changing this world and helping others see that: God can make a difference and He is bigger than any obstacle or challenge we will ever face on this Earth.
                2 years ago today, she came into my life, and changed me in ways I never even thought were possible. Thank you Father for the gift of LIFE through my daughter’s death. I am who I am today because Of a God who never gave up on me and a little girl who has given me more strength than I ever could have imagined.

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  1. Happy birthday, sweet baby!

  2. Happy Birthday to your beautiful girl and many hugs to you!

  3. Happy 2nd Birthday Bethany and peace and love to you and your family Amy.

    (Sorry I'm a day late, but I did remember you and Bethany yesterday.)

  4. Ahh, Thank you for remembering...

  5. Happy birthday to your gorgeous angel xoxo

  6. Happy Heavenly Birthday
    (((HUGS))) to your family.

  7. Happy 2nd Birthday in Heaven to sweet Bethany!! Sorry I'm so late in posting.

  8. Happy Birthday Bethany! I love reading your posts, Amy, you give me inspiration and hope.


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