Feeling defeated is something all too many mothers feel on a daily basis. Our children pull us in fifty million different directions, the laundry is piling up, the dishes are everywhere, and someone still needs to clean the house! And don’t forget about our spouse, friends, and other church responsibilities we might have as well.
This feeling can be overwhelming and yet multiplied by 10 in the midst of tragedy or grief. So many times after I lost Bethany I would long to be what my family needed me to be, but I just didn’t know how; it seemed like too much. There were times that even sitting down to a family dinner felt forced and strange. At times I wanted to run as far as I could and wake up from this nightmare I had found myself standing dead center in the middle of.
The problem with running from my nightmare was that my pain and memories still went with me no matter how far I might try to run. The truth is; motherhood IS overwhelming at times and can make any mom feel defeated, but I have to remember I am still hurting and still healing. I have to give myself time. Time to let go, and time to work through these feelings that I just don’t always understand. There is NO time limit. God will pull you through in HIS timing, not ours…
The thing I have learned about motherhood is that tomorrow may never come, but my kids are still here today. I have learned to make myself a schedule to stay up with the laundry and housework, but reality is; sometimes things get off schedule and I get behind. Instead of getting stressed and upset, I remind myself that each day I can work a little harder to catch up rather than killing myself to get it all done in one day and missing out on time with my kids; the mess will still be there, my kids may not!
Stop feeling defeated, and allow yourself to be REAL. Understand that you don’t have to be everything for everyone ALL the time. GOD will get you through, and allow you to balance out your life and your priorities.
Where are you running today? Are you running into the chaos of your life, or running into the arms of Jesus to bring direction into your life?